Today was just like all of the others. I was fine all day until about 5... that's when it starts hitting me every day. Who I am going to call to tell about my day? Who am I going to eat dinner with? Who am I going to say goodnight and I love you to? The answer to all of those for me now is no one. I never realized how hard it is to be the "single" one hanging out with couples. I think I am also a little emotionally unstable about it also, but its tough. Especially when half of my friends are in like serious relationships. It makes me miss him more. But we weren't like that anymore. I am starting to think that I miss him the most as my best friend. I could tell him anything and he was always there to listen regardless. I could always depend on him for being there for me no matter what. He would do anything for me and I think at the time I really took advantage of that. But a relationship is a lot more than that and it is a lot more than friendship. And I think we were missing that something else.. the spark, the heat... But I know I love him, I just don't know if I am in love with him. Nights are the hardest.
Eating
Breakfast: 1/2 cup oats, 1 banana and 1 packet of stevia (250)
Snack: Apple (100)
Lunch: Vegan minestrone soup-- small portion from restaurant. Was stoked that they actually had a vegan option! Bag of baby carrots right when I got back- still part of lunch (300?)
Snack: veggies and 2 meatless meatballs (50)
Dinner: 1 T hummus, Roasted eggplant, squash and zucchini with spinach and some tomato sauce (350)
Dessert: 100 calorie pack popcorn with cinnamon (100) spoonful of new almond butter! yumm (75)
Exercise
4 miles running on the treadmill and then cool down: total 40 minutes and stretching
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