Sleep Don't Weep

I feel like everything around me has turned into a sign. Like a certain song comes on, something on TV, a comment someone at works says... Everything leads me back to the only thing I don't want to think about. Good thing no one reads this.. They would probably think I was obsessive and depressing. Which I am... but I don't want strangers to know that about me. "Sleep Don't Weep" was randomly on my itunes just now and I think it sums up my goal for every night. Wah me. Work at least has been keeping me busy, which I don't know if that is a good or a bad thing. All I want to do is be in bed all the time. I am trying to act back to normal so people at work, my friends and family dont know how sad I really am. He would be the only one I would normally tell these feelings to.

Day 3 of the cleanse went well. I probably will find a way to gain weight on this haha. Everyone has been asking me what I can actually eat and there really is a lot. You just wouldnt think about it.

Eats:

Breakfast: 1/2 cup oats, 1 banana, handful of almonds (350)

Snack: Apple (100)

Lunch: Small salad with 3 meatless meatballs, side of fruit salad (200)

Snack: Peanuts (250)

Dinner: Tofu and beans- small portion leftover at friends (150)

Snack: couple veggies with 1/2 T hummus, 3 grapes, couple almonds, salsa-- weird I know (250)

No exercise todayy.. waking up early to go to the gym tomorrow!